“I miss you.” “I know. I miss me, too.”

Damn…

I know you think I’m holding you down And I’ve fallen by the wayside now And I don’t understand the same things as you But I do… -Keane, Bedshaped Stay weird, y’all XOXO ❤️

Here we go again 

You know. As many appointments as I’ve been through, as many posts as I make, as much as I talk about anxiety….I still feel weak when I bring it up to the doctor.  My fear has all but completely taken over my brain. I have a panic attack walking the ten feet from my front…

New Adventures, New Lessons

My intent today was to write a nasty entry about the stupidity of rioters and the political turmoil our country has put itself in. But my son is curled up against my chest, out cold. It took about two hours of indecision on his part to get to this point. (He seems to be going…

A Different Kind of Christmas

I’ve got a pretty good buzz going right now. So I figure now is as good a time as any to think about how different this year has been. A clusterfuck of chaos, I believe is what most would refer to it as. … I had a whole entry planned for tonight. Christmas lights, watching…

One more day

How many times do you tell yourself to let your pride go before that pep talk turns into one big fuck it I’m done… How many times do you make excuses for a person and reach out a hand, because “they’re just lost.” How many times do you stand on the bridge waiting before you…

Numb.

I have SO much to be thankful for in this last week. And yet I feel like I’m drowning.  Husband was in a wreck. Truck was totaled. He’s ok, and it could have been much worse.  Still nothing from my brother. It’s my moms birthday today, and her baby boy wants nothing to do with…

It hurts to even breathe…

You know, I’ve only ever used all the hot water in the house while showering on 3 occassions. I’m talking just simply turn the shower on as hot as I can stand it and just sit there until the water runs cold. No singing. No dancing. Just listening to the water hit the side of…

Pleading

I saw Darkness lurking around the corner. Perhaps Darkness thought she was sneaky, but it’s hard to miss her. It’s impossible to ignore the stench of misery looking for company. As I walked down the street I could feel her. Watching. Waiting. So I stopped. As I began to turn my head I saw Darkness dart…

Dear Women

In an effort to play along with the cries for equality, I also have a message for my fellow women.  There’s no elegant way to say this so I’m just gonna call us all out.  Stop being such bitches.  How in the hell can we expect men to respect us when we don’t respect each…

Dear Men

Sexual harassment is real and it is never, under any circumstances, ok. Women are not toys. Women are not objects. Women are not a piece of meat. We are human beings who deserve the same respect you, as men, are so quick to demand.  My tattoos are not in existence to elicit sexual comments or…